Now On His Team
When I started spending time with God
My journey with Jesus started when I was 7 years old. A religious group visited the house and left some pamphlets. My mom left them on the table. As she was in the kitchen, I sat on the couch and picked them up, just being curious. I knew God existed but never knew Him.
On these pages, they talked about sin and hell and the redemption of Jesus Christ and how we should ask Him into our heart. So as much as a young child could muster I looked deep into myself, the first “introspection” one might say, and asked God and Jesus into my heart through the Holy Spirit. Now I had little understanding of the triune nature of God at that time, but something happened; I did feel the Holy Spirit enter my soul. A warm, gentle, calm, loving feeling that lasted only for a few minutes but it gave me a glimpse of the love and power Jesus had in my life. This changed my perspective on God for the rest of my life.
My life went back to normal, sort of. However, I went through my life as other children. I grew into a typical teenager. Overconfident, rebellious (only to a point), and sure I knew everything there was to know. I quickly discovered the more I thought I knew, the more I discovered how much I didn’t know.
Throughout this time I attended my church, took part in the youth group along with other services. Soaking up every ounce of God I could find. When I was eighteen my pastor asked me to join the clergy, I was excited! A man I respected and looked up to thought I could accomplish something greater for God. My own father never said that to me.
My family life was far from perfect, and I made many mistakes, I felt hurt by my dad’s disapproving response to my pastor’s offer. In short, my dad didn’t believe in me, so I rebelled. All I accomplished was hurting myself and my relationship with my Heavenly Father. My journey with Jesus, with God, almost ended.
The next ten years of my life were “bumpy,” but God never removed his hand from my life. Jesus made sure he had an influence on my life even when I didn’t want Him there, and yes, I was still angry. When I stopped listening to Godly advice, I messed things up, which included a failed marriage and a nonexistent career. I felt hurt, useless, and alone. Then after a long ride home I broke down tearfully and asked God to forgive me and for Jesus to help me with all areas of my life, I really screwed it up on my own. I needed Him, I needed the love of Jesus Christ.
Since then I have the blessing of a wonderful loving wife, two great kids, all who know God. The pull toward God has been growing every day for the last 27 years, and the “…seek ye first…” verse always came to mind.
The bible is my owner’s manual. A Human operator manual for living our lives not just spiritually but physically as well. I currently read the bible about five days a week for about fifteen to thirty minutes a day. So far just in little chunks at a time. I have read the entire bible twice this way. It only took about 7 years. Patience on a long-term goal is the key. Read small chunks at a time, meditate slowly, and pray about what you have read. Don’t worry about the size of the book just slowly digest the next page or chapter. This is how you get to know Him better.
My goal with this website is to urge you, the site visitor, to pick up the bible and give it a read. If you haven’t guessed, I love God. He led me to this point. The bible is our gift from God so we may know what He wants from us and so we may know how he feels about us. He gave us His only Son to pay our debt. Since Jesus is willing to take our punishment, we should at least know who He is and how much He cares. Start your journey with Jesus, He made you, He misses your company.